HOW MANY?
samutprakarn,thailand
22september2005
I couldn’t sleep last night….
Probably because I had a cup of coffee before I went to bed?
I tossed and turned throughout the night.
I couldn't help asking
How many...
....more nights like these
before I get used to the loneliness?
...more nights like these
before I learn to live alone - -
apart from the family that I left behind?
...more nights like these
before I finally decide to pack my bags and go back?
I am counting the days to March.
And it is only the 22nd of September
How many.....
.....more border runs to make
before I finally get through the hoops of securing a work permit?
...more hours to teach English
to verbally challenged students?
...more hours to spend on the net on weekends?
...more forced and faked smiles to give
when my head swims in despair?
...more times will I get frustrated
Whenever I need to talk to someone
and he could not understand what I say?
...more times to travel to Bangkok from Samutprakarn
standing in the bus?
...more times to get down the next bus stop
because I got on the wrong bus?
...more times to ride motorcycles
to get to my apartment?
...more times to read Richard Bach’s “Illusions”?
...more times to almost burst out crying
when I see my children on the Yahoo webcam?
...more times to feel mushy
when I get email from friends?
...more times to feel the pangs of sadness
when I count days?
I couldn’t sleep last night
I did not even try to count sheep…….
......AND I KNOW IT IS NOT THE COFFEE
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