sorry baby but we tried

A poem written by my daughter when she was still a student nurse. Like me, my daughter writes poems that show details of an experience. I hope she could find the desire again to write and not wait till she is 40 before she finds it again. (like I did ) sorry baby but we tried QMC, June 25, at the NICU Department Gotta go now, I say, as I leave my apartment On duty today from 6:00am till 2:00 Attending to babies in QMC’s NICU at 8:40am, a baby girl was delivered as i pushed the crib, still no cry was heard Cyanotic, bradycardic and apneic Oh my God help me, I am going to panic! I suctioned quickly her secretions were bloody I swabbed the oral cavity, still no cry or sign of air entry so small, so fragile I am almost scared to touch But then I came to my senses I only got a little time to catch. At long last I heard a cry was that me? my heart pounding as i try ambu-bagging, not a joke you would buy If this won’t work,i am pretty sure it’ll be hard to keep my eyes dry. I noticed some flexion of the baby’s extremeties but still not enough to call for parties Oil bath, then warm bath, both were rendered anthropometric measurements, vital signs taken and recorded I applied terramycin eye ointment on both eyes Vitamin K was injected on her left upper thigh her umbilical cord ligated and dressed aseptically umbilical arteries and vein, I checked properly At exactly 11:00 am, her RBS was taken For umbicath, I phoned the intern at 11:20, she’s again cyanotic it worsened, she’s now bradycardic and apneic CPR done, epinephrine given I prayed for a heartbeat right when i listened Lay baptism done, her name, is "ANGEL" Yeah I know she is one — anyone can tell. Gave another dose of epinephrine the doctor ordered continuous ambu-bagging Pupils dilated and sluggishly reactive to light I can see an ANGEL getting ready for her flight at 12:45 she seemed "well", for just a little I prayed so hard that ANGEL will win this battle We did our best and then I saw that her father just cried I’m sorry baby Angel, but we REALLY tried.