That's how it is in friendships -- you expose a little bit of yourself each time. Then your friends decide whether to take you the way you are or not.
Sometimes the day seems so sunny and clear and all of a sudden it rains. You laugh and kid around one moment, the next moment, the door is slammed to your face and you ask yourself "what happened".
John Powell wrote a book -- "Why Am I Afraid To Tell You Who I Am"? --- because you might not like what I am and it's all I've got!